To my beloved followers:
Hii thatβs a goodbye letter, yes, my time is over, and Iβm writing this to beg for forgiveness due my drug induced psychosis. I was so desperate when I saw my income decreasing, the domestic violence happening in Japan, the hate comments about my decision after having a neovagina, the stress and the rejections made me choose the drugs, I was mixing and taking ecstasy almost daily and that got me into psychosis, going filterless, and paranoid.
I was doing it while scrolling social medias and reading a bunch of posts and that messed up with my mind as well. Doing that didnβt work either, nobody wanted to stay around even, β who wants to stay around with someone like that: drugged ?ββ¦ I was not thinking straight, my sanity was completely gone! And when psychosis ended, I went back again in this reality and saw the chaos Iβve made. I felt so ashamed, so guilty, so sad, so empty, so lost cuz I was being a monster I never was, I cried so much, I felt like a failure, I failed my purpose in this life and I donβt see the reason to stay here anymore.
I keep myself sober, but itβs too late, I donβt see no tomorrow :)
Thank you so much guys for watching my progress as a transgender, it felt amazing seeing you guys enjoying me since tumblr, chaturbate and on onlyfans xD you guys made me feel desired, horny, sensual, cute, special, funny and a sissy, I will never forget the life you guys gave me, it was a blessing making friendship with you π
Iβd like you to keep spreading this to others as well and also you guys deserve the greatest things in life π€
For the trans people: always love yourself, always choose yourself, the love you keep seeking is within you and not outside, no one will respect or love you like yourself!
So once again, thank you so much for watching and I hope to see you next time,
Goodbye!
With love, alternativeBonny