book: apologies that never came

this is for the ones looking for closure. the ones trying to make sense of it all. the ones running with heavy feet after healing.

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this is for the ones
looking for closure,
the ones trying to
make sense of it all,
the ones running with
heavy feet after healing.

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perhaps
they were different,
and the ending
was the only similarity.

besides,
with this thing called love,
you either find your forever
or find another stepping stone
for the path.

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the way they held
on to their ways
was the way
you wanted them
to hold you.

the way they kept breaking
their promises
was the way
you wanted them
to keep you smiling.

the way they kept
running away
from your love
was the way
you wanted them
to chase after your heart
over again.

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loving them became
your religion,
faithfulness like theirs
can only be found in radicals,
so you’ve grown to believe
that they would sacrifice
their very flesh for your heart.

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their words were sermons
you found easy to commit to,
they were words of life
that gave your heart courage
to beat again.

their lips became a bible
in their eyes
you saw a savior
willing to forgive
your sinful past
and grace you with their love.

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maybe you’re lucky
for meeting new faces,
catapulting you
to new places,
though they never
remain the face
that you wake up to
every morning.

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almost all of us
have met someone
who has forever in their eyes
and happily ever after
written on their skin;
yet, they only came
for a short stay.

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you’re not a fool
for being fooled.
almost everyone
will pour sugar
into their food
if it’s placed into
a salt container.

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I am sick and tired
of being both,
sick and tired,
from these empty promises
that have given my stomach
reason to reject
any food that tries
to make its way in.

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I have become sick
of this word love,
but never too tired
to give up on
my quest for it.

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I am sick and tired
of being the one
who got away
when I have every intention
of staying.

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I vomited lie after lie,
and became dehydrated
from this thirst for you.

you could not quench it,
neither were you willing
to give me more
than sips of your love.

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someone will find you
who will come to care
for every detail
of who you are.

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perhaps the ones
who left
never earned the right
to stay

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they were supposed
to be the boat
that carries your love
where the sky
meets the water,
forever you call it;
but they became
the reason it drowned.
the reason you are afraid
of dipping your toes
into love again.

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they came, they left.

you don’t have to
let your happiness leave
and never return
like they did.

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I was hoping that the
“better you”
found us
before I left
to find a
“better me”.

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people don't just fall out of love.

either little things add up
and they slowly break away,
or they were never in love
in the first place.

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don’t judge the book by the cover

until you realize that
you should not have done so
because the summary
was far too exciting
to be truly heavenly.

you were right.

here you are expecting
long chapters
of a lasting story
only to become
a lasting moment
of another short thrill.

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role play

you never saw yourself
being a character
in another short story.

playing this role again,
where you fall in love
with the hero
only to find out
the plot twist is that
they are the villain
who perfected
the meaning of,
‘wolf in sheep’s clothing’.

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they were the angel
you were glad
lost its wings
and became a citizen
of this earth.

how could you
have guessed that
they were one
of the fallen ones
who visits the earth
to mimic everything love is?

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you were different

their mouth carried truths
that your heart fetched
like no other.

truth that was not only
planted on their tongue
but grew roots that
grabbed their heart.

they were everything
you needed them to be
and everything you
wanted in love.