If you grew up hearing shit like "negativity and unhappiness are contagious surround yourself with happy and optimistic people" you kinda start thinking you're a disease
Very true. Not that I’ve ever been purposely “excluded” (that I know of) but for some reason I’m inclined (conditioned?) to think I don’t really matter that much to people. I’m always very shocked to learn someone was aware of my absence, or wished I was there