I don't go here as often to write about my thoughts, but I still think about you a lot and I would do almost anything to be able to just talk with you again. I genuinely miss you so much. I wish we could've been here still. Both of us. You deserved better. I'm sorry. I love you.
I hope with all my heart that, when it's over for me, I get to meet you up there and finally get to spend time with you and also to learn more about you in person. I truly want me to go to wherever you are up there and be close to you in a way I couldn't be in life. I miss you.
Just had such a vivid dream about you Raven. The lengths I would go to reach you - to be with you. Dreamt that you were still around and somehow lived nearby and I was in contact with you a couple weeks earlier and would reach out to people that knew you, to ask them to help me.
To think we were so close to actually getting to meet up summer of 2023 still feels so surreal. To think that I finally got to visit London and even stayed at a place so close to where you lived in Battersea. Makes it feel like we were meant to meet back then.
losing someone is losing the tiny habits you built around them. the good morning texts, sending random pictures, telling them something stupid that happened. nobody warns you how empty those little things can feel when they're suddenly gone
Even the summers are rough. You'd think it would be easier when its sunny and nice weather, but instead all I can think about is how much I wish you were here to enjoy it with me. I miss you Raven, I really do. <3 :(