reread this piece i wrote where i couldn’t answer a stranger’s question about my sense of purpose without the sentence falling apart. so much has changed in such a short amount of time, although, i still feel a sense of recognition towards where i once was..
@firehorsemia@lunarbloomers@inuyarasha_ could write poetry to express the beauty of this country, but there’s nothing like witnessing it with your own eyes & experiencing it every day
@firehorsemia@inuyarasha_ PID is a nightmare, i developed it last year bc of medical negligence after i was assaulted. it’s so frustrating how thrush & BV etc risk also increases w certain coils …
@firehorsemia@inuyarasha_ i have a jaydess instead of a mirena, it has a lower life span but it has less side effects + it fits better for my body. i would def recommend going through all the various coil options !
@lunarbloomers i can relate in ways w my own parents- it is so challenging to forgive, even when you consciously understand this. ig the emotional imprint is far more difficult to address ..
chronic illness doesn’t resolve into meaning, it just persists.. i keep thinking about le guin’s point that we over-aestheticise pain as if it’s automatically deep when often it’s just repetitive. the dishonest move is forcing an arc onto duration.
I’ve been sick for so long I forget what being healthy feels like. I used to cry in self-pity for the first couple years and yearn for my health back. But now I don’t even know what I’m missing anymore. It’s sad but it shows how resilient humans are
@lunarbloomers that is the contradiction, honestly. for a lot of people, romanticising suffering isn’t some individual failure, it’s one of the few ways their suffering is made visible under capitalism .. shaming ppl for how they respond to these conditions is just nasty af as well
@lunarbloomers venting is part of coping & ig the point isn’t whether venting is “good” or “bad” but what it’s doing. the same act can either help metabolise a given experience or keep reproducing it; the difference is approach and intention
this always makes me so emotional, charlie brown did not adopt snoopy so much as accept that love arrives fully formed & u adjust around it. https://t.co/8KHwXtJVVJ
@inuyarasha_ maybe urban sprawl aside auckland is a very beautiful city. so much variety in its landscape with five billion former volcanoes, endless beaches n waterfronts, two harbours, etc. i go to places like texas and its like oh. flatness and suburbia and depression