sio is an idiot

17 she/her edtwt/sh content. 5’8 :)

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i’ve been around on edtwt since mid 2020. but had to make a new account and will try and stay as anonymous as possible this time 😀

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went to an asian supermarket yesterday and a girl very, very, very obviously took a photo of me. i cried after.

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@strxwbxrry_lbs @donlikescoffee i’ve planned a binge.. my lw was bmi 10.9 and i’m currently under bmi 13. im dx. i have frequently planned b/p sessions. in fact if you have a purging related disorder at some point you will also likely do this.

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no no no i’m coming back to edtwt properly fuck it all fuck everyone fuck this i’m coming back

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that’s not even. that’s not even right. it was the other way around and now people are switching to THAT definition? fuck me i don’t even know anymore but SOMETHING HAS SHIFTED AND ITS PISSING MY AUTISTIC BRAIN OFF

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i don’t even know what high and low res mean anymore. years ago when i first made a twt acc low res was not a lot of restriction, i.e. high cals. and i thought that was weird, that it should be the other way around, but ppl corrected me. NOW y’all are switching???

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in other news tho i havent been purging a whole lot recently, haven’t needed to, just once w ice cream a couple weeks ago and a few times w water bc it’s a stress reliever idk. relieving to know i still have my knack for it bc i absolutely destroyed my throat twice today

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how can i be bmi 13 and still do shit like this i’ll never achieve what i fucking want get a fucking grip christ almighty how did this happen i just want to fast forward into halfway through next week when i’m over this shit

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chewed and spit and b/p all of the possible binge foods and they’re not super accessible so i’m literally good for ages now except i have a shit tonne of tteokbokki left. idk what to do w that.

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you ever binge/purge so bad on some food you literally are never going to be able to eat it again? well a specific type of crisp was the only thing on this list. now, asian crispy square things are number 2 and tteokbokki (one of my fave foods :/) is no. 3.

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this type of thing hasn’t happening in like. months and months and months, fortunately i know this means it won’t happen again for a while and i just have to continue doing what i’m doing and try and chill out

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me to myself before i binge

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also? i personally have a chronic ed heavily rooted in trauma. societal fatphobia didn’t cause this, this isn’t helping whatsoever. hers, as she’s said, was caused by fatphobia and her hating being fat. great, unlearn it all you want, but people have real deep shit going on mate

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anyone who thinks this is funny clearly doesn’t have a fucking ed. ed’s aren’t logical. they might be rooted in societal fatphobia for some and not for others, you don’t know! either way, it’s not a fucking attack on you!

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@Iucifersbody if anything id be so shocked and hurt to be deliberately fucked w in that state (bc she SAID it to make them cry??) i genuinely would lose my shit and fucking deck her or throw whatever i was eating over the cunt

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anyone who thinks this is funny clearly doesn’t have a fucking ed. ed’s aren’t logical. they might be rooted in societal fatphobia for some and not for others, you don’t know! either way, it’s not a fucking attack on you!

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@Iucifersbody there’s being comfortable in your body and scaring people not comfortable in theirs. not a single one of those ppl would’ve seen it as ‘unlearning fatphobia’ as she has said 😭 it would’ve terrified them, scared them out of recovery. i would literally fucking deck her

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@Iucifersbody it’s literally born of her feeling like they were attacking her. they have their own shit. they really don’t care about you. if ur in ed treatment ur literally more stressed about urself, that’s why they were saying ‘nasty’ (as comments have said) things. they’re stressed.

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if you’re in treatment for an ed you’re at such a low point inherently, you’re half consumed with obsession and delusion. it’s so obvious this is born of her insecurity over her weight. let’s fuck w other ppl bc they don’t want to be as fat w me and that makes me feel bad!

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why the FUCK would you think this is some clever funny thing for someone to say? ESPECIALLY if you have ANY KIND OF EATING DISORDER? you would understand how delusional it makes you, if i heard this i’m not even kidding i would be so upset & fucking pissed w her for fucking w me

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@ray_vivi25 on tik tok? definitely. not over here so much or even at all