i think people should discuss more how difficult and complex gender dysphoria can be with a dissociative disorder. it’s hard to ever fully present in a way that everyone is comfortable with when different parts have such wildly different gender identities and expressions
@uncanny_eli@GuardiansSystem I don’t even want a full mascectomy and I still had my brother say I should just “lose weight” if i want them to look smaller…
like that is not how that works. the proportions I have I would collapse into a black hole
@KitsuneKismet the only person i still “people please” with is my brother bc he is an asshole who you can’t say anything..have any disagreement or want without it becoming a fight and i cant just remove him from my life.
sometimes I can come to a place of acceptance for a trauma after acknowledging it as true and I’m fine. but the moment denial comes in it gets scary again.
HORRIBLE: the way you acted around someone has permanently added a vector of possibility to how they understand you as a person, permanently changing their view of you away from a pure, untainted state
“wont you say goodnight so i can say goodbye” is genuinely their best lyric like the idea of needing a proper last moment with someone so you can go end your life like i have a pit in my stomach
@a51dear@didyoupullupyet i understood you fine, but for the future if you think something could be interpreted a diff way you could always add tone tags!! /j for joke and /sarc for sarcastic /srs for serious, etc
Notice how we have the "this is by twenty one pilots??? I didn't know they had any good songs" conversation every time a song blows up. Has anyone considered that this might mean they make good music
@emetswife i have the words somewhere in my brain. sometimes I talk with super fancy big words without realizing the audience won’t understand. but too many times I know there is a word for something but don’t remember and end up babbling. A balance must be met.