The second you mention suicidal thoughts to any doctor:
"DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAPLAN?DOYOUHAVEAP-"