I could not be more upset rn.. 😞😞😔 so ready to not have to wait on phone calls to talk to the person I wanna talk to the most and be crushed when i accidentally miss those calls bc my chances to talk to my person are just gone and the waiting game starts again.. 😔
It’s amazing to me how my man can be in a situation far worse than I am, but yet still remains the positive one and reminds me to stay in the here and now and that I’m okay no matter what. He’s my rock.
I know God wants us to forgive and eventually I will but that doesn’t mean I’ll forget. Respect has gone out the window and my perception has probably been forever changed.
Yes anger causes people to do things that might not normally do or say things they might not normally say but there’s certain things that just cross a line and are inexcusable and being angry is not reason enough to do some off the wall shit that you can’t take back.
I’ve been crying all night, for about 5 minutes at a time, in like 15-20 min intervals and it’s really annoying bc I should be cried out but my heart is hurting and I just can’t help it.
This goodbye hurt more than the first one bc the first one, I knew we wouldn’t see each other for a while but this one, I know we’re just some miles apart… starting over after 4 years of the same sense of normalcy… it’s a whole different kind of pain…