it’s so weird being 5 hours from home, wanting to be around the people you love but also not wanting to interact but also feeling alone but not actually feeling lonely? if that makes sense.
the type of self awareness i’ve reached? i dated someone with a child & knew just from the way they were, i would never take that next step with them & couldn’t let myself fully absorb for that reason. it had nothing to do with their parenting either, but their character.
i think of how sweet & good my mama is to me when i’m alone & it’s so crazy, not bc she never has been but i’m rlly so blessed with a woman that has loved me constantly. everytime.
“YOUR’RE SO PRIVATE AND MYSTERIOUS” girl, i literally just stay home unless i’m going to work or see the people who are kind to me. idk what else to say
my truth, when i find interest in someone- even if we’re not in a good place, i don’t forget why i did. i give you catching my attention the benefit, but also that’s why im hard on you rubbing me the wrong way.