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All you need is rest and tonics

[ashtrees @ashtrees01]

Have a good night. 💌

#QuietTime #art #digitalart

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Yeah lol, over here the most that happens is restaraunts with patios sometimes close the patios down as far as I’m aware. But again, maybe in your location it’s worse? Who knows! I am in agreement with you though, unless the city is actually on fire, I’d probably keep them open. But that’s my two cents!

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@glennthegreat God that’s so depressing :((

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@LizzyStarrrdust @AlyssaLogic Chicka cherry cola*

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@AntiCommieBecca @AmerikanLazarus @RealDianeYap Godspeed ��

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@AmerikanLazarus @AntiCommieBecca @RealDianeYap Ahhh, I wish no ill will on anyone. I’m mostly just a shitposting douchebag on here 80% of the time. I’m glad you were entertained by the brief, but bordering hostile, thread, though! :))

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@AntiCommieBecca @RealDianeYap I hate using gifs, but:

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@TriScaleArt @RealDianeYap Unironically wholesome

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@AmerikanLazarus @AntiCommieBecca @RealDianeYap Yes the joke completely went over her head lololol.

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@AntiCommieBecca @RealDianeYap Oh, sweet Rebecca. It’s not a relationship. It’s roommates.

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@LizzyStarrrdust RIP

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Oh, no, there would be no competition with the fanfic. Maybe my later writings as an adult (but even so, no man I’ve dated seriously ever had an interest in writing). But the fanfic was just… so embarrassing, it’ll never see the light of day aside from the dark corners of the internet it’ll stay because I forget my password to the account and I can’t delete it lmao.

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@pinganul @wanted4mogging He does have some good takes sometimes, but definitely trust your instincts on this one lol.

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@LizzyStarrrdust God damnit, he’s gay!?

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Looked at a thing I spent months avoiding. Felt pain and regret. Tried to find some ragefuel to distract myself, didn’t work. Tried some happyfuel, made me sad. Played chess for 3 hours - feelin’ better. :)) ♥️♟️

Goodnight world. 🌙

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I suck at online dating because I prefer to chat with them for way longer online than they prefer - largely because of the location (I live in a pretty remote area where there isn’t really anyone on dating apps who I don’t already know very well and dislike cuz they are douchebags for a variety of imo valid reasons). So anyone I meet online, we’d need to travel a several hours to meet, and that alone adds a bit of pressure and FEAR because I’m a neurotic freak. And usually gotta get a hotel or someone needs to stay the night which is … kinda scary. So, I like to kinda get to know them online for a minimum of like a month, which is an instant turn off for most it seems.

The thing that bothers me the most is that I like to really discuss and debate politics or social topics, or other abstract stuff, even if people disagree with me. Tbh, I find getting into disagreements kinda hot and I can accept when I’m wrong or lost a debate so long as they don’t just start being like “you’re a dumb bitch!!!” before we even met. It makes me more eager to meet them because it shows that they actually think about these things. But all I ever get on these dating apps is, “haha, let’s just wait until we meet in person, then we can get into these discussions.” BOOORRRING!

I understand why they say that. I’m sure it’s a risky thing to talk about because if they say the wrong thing, they might ruin it before even meeting. But unless you’re a full fledged extremist on either side, I can’t imagine anything they say would be so offensive I’d be turned off. If anything, if you’re able to prove me wrong on things, I’ll be more turned on and more eager to meet!

Instead it’s basically like … going through a list of questions based on things like “want a family marriage?” what kind of movies/music you like?” What’s your job?” “Religious?” Drugs/alcohol?” “Hobbies?” where I feel like I’m in the first stage of a job interview and if I pass the first round, it’s like “all right let’s set up the second round of the interview process.” In which case, yeah, we are both still being in pleasant, friendly mode where I feel like neither of us are being our true selves.

Tbf, I recently went on my first date in like… the past 6 years and it was so awkward, entirely my fault. I’m just a mess and don’t know how to talk unless I’m being a sperg and I was trying my hardest not to be a sperg because I could tell he was pretty normal. Very nice! Just.. very normal. And it was exhausting and he talked mostly about himself and I could just tell we weren’t really compatible. When the date was over (we paid for our own meals, don’t worry) I said I was going to the hotel. He suggested he join me and my brain just kinda broke down and I went “uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” for a really long time until he was like “it’s okay, I don’t have to. Maybe next time.” And I said “okay thank you I’m sorry I’m not used to this!!!” And we hugged. And … neither of us reached out to each other again and I have not tried online dating again since (this was like a month ago lol).

Maybe next time it’ll be better.

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@sadreturns I have this happen more with boomers at my work trying to be hip and cool

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@gorjusbutiful Because liking anything is cringe and gay now

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@kuchisakeonnax Thank GOD.