jyushi of shedtwt ★

𝐣𝐲𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢/𝐦𝐢𝐤𝐚's vent ⋆.˚ ☾ .⭒˚ internet ghost & autistic anxious loser ‧₊ 🍮 ⋅ ☆˚.

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i dont dislike being short i just wish i wouldnt look like if a regular human was put through a hydraulic press😭😭

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

my lw is not low at all imo and i was fatter then than now but what if. i reached it again by the end of the year. what would i look like. im very curious

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

less than 2 months until christmas............

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i love all my friends and mutuals so much because im parasocial

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

its either restrict your own freedom and lock yourself into your room or be killed but it doesnt matter what i do my mom will criticize me and put all responsibility on me and even if i killed myself she would apologize to herself instead of me

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

I KEEP LETTING MY GUARD DOWN GOD DAMNIT THIS HOUSE IS A PRISON I CANT LIVE WITH MY MOM ANYMORE I DONT WANT TO AND I CANT

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i dont have any friends who have ruined their lives like me everyones living their lives and i am 😭😭doing nothing😭😭 and my family gives me😭nothing😭😭 bc there is nothing to give when ure all poor and depressed AGKGGHHGHGHH

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i never have friend groups that last more than a few months im only in trios that are actually two friends and me as the random unsettling creature

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

@Viv1d_End ur hair looks awesome shuddupp

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

why can so many of my irls who cut go so deep and live. my mom keeps disturbing me and when theres just one oddly colored spot on my body she'll inspect me i have zero privacy with her

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

seeing friend on sunday again yay i hope she will give me another pile of bandaids

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i was at a meetup talking to new friend and when we compared our skin colors by putting our wrists side by side i felt very humbled cuz they r naturally thin 💔 ahhh,ahhhh my brain

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

urgghhh why does everyone have parents with money

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i wish i was just 5cm taller i'd look so much cooler

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

ok i wish i was dead

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i know beauty standards are rooted in pedophilia but im trying to look androgynous which is why i have never shaved and never will just Get those curves Off of me

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

can time please go slower bruh i have so many things to do and one month until execution

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

@honamish3art DUDE WHAT STAY SAFE

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

i jjuysstt want to be able to look at myself and not want to puke

[jyushi of shedtwt ★ @asmorphiaa]

am less depressed now which gives me more energy and motivation for eating disorder 😍