ʚ fawn ɞ

⟡ sick of life ⟡ psych major (almost done) ⟡ pro recovery ⟡ 说一点中文 (一点)

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

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fawn / any prns

⟡ ana bp & ocd
⟡ not new (had an ed for forever)
⟡ pro recovery!!
⟡ pls moot ifb!

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[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

Not that anyone noticed but I’m back

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

Ok so.. 👀

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

Looking very оverdosable rn..

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@aegyocals I actually ran a poll on here a while back on my old account

It had over 1500 responses (which is a REALLY good sample size and bigger than this study had iirc)

The average еdtwt user’s bmi was 20.4 and 30% of users were underweight

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@aegyocals The study this comes from kind of sucks actually

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

Looking very оverdosable rn..

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

He just refilled my benzо tho so… 👀

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@evangellical1 These same ppl will post “avgspo vs thinspо” threads where you can’t even tell which is which bc there’s like a 3 lb difference between the two pics

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

He just refilled my benzо tho so… 👀

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

The way I’ve come out of literally every session with my psychiatrist genuinely wanting to kіll myself and somehow he thinks he’s a “good” therapist and I’m the problem

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

WHY ARE WE STILL SEEING HIM

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@rarlparty Who’s using giraffe? Wouldn’t they be dеаd??

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

Istg he wants me to kіll myself to stop burdening my family or something

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

I think he’s got a long con going of trying to push me to suіcide bc he also recently prescribed me a 3 month supply of the max dose of an antidepressant he was planning to take me off of, so then I had 180 pills and nothing to do with them but od

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@ExclusiveBxrb @meltypafait That’s so much for the advice I’ll kіll myself tonight to make the world a better place

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

The guy who grооmed me on edinsta except he was both ppl

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@DrChristianED But you are Dr Christian.. this is a tautological statement

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@prettiestbuni If you wanted to help estimate why didnt you give your actual estimate?

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

In January I had virtually no desire to eat, I went like a week without eating easily and only stopped bc I was scared of the physical symptoms I started having

Now I can’t stop thinking about eating I can’t even go two days and the whole time I’m constantly wanting food

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@poppyduvet My understanding is ur digestive system needs time to switch back to food as its main source of energy instead of mainly burning fat bc ig it was basically sleeping on the job so long it forgot how to do its thing idk

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

@connectionfear I grew up with 4 siblings so if there was anything you wanted to eat in the house it was either eat it immediately or it will be gone tomorrow and realizing how much that effected my relationship with food was devastating

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

Also shed definitely tell my parents to RUN from that psychiatrist treating me rn and my dad would listen to her. He loves him bc hes like equally insane as my dad but if his mom called him a quack hed either have listen or have a major cognitive dissonance situation on his hands

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

My grandma dіеd before I was born but I think she would be the only person in my whole family to validate that I actually have an ed bc she used to specialize in treating them. I’m conflicted

[ʚ fawn ɞ @asphodeltears]

I feel like if she had been alive all my childhood I would never have gotten so mentally ill in the first place but idk either way the damage is done now so I don’t think bringing her back would now would make me better it just would be nice to have her there