U WILL FEEL MY LOVE
it will be d best i just know it
still remember how happy the people i gave letters to seemed to be
ure all still that important to me
and it seems like sum of u keep forgetting how special u r
i got too much love for myself damay damay n to
by force btw
anyway!! we bounce back brodies
plenty of people that im very grateful for who i havent shown love to yet
im looking at u cat lady we need to go hiking
n that one oldie that never got to treat me out for siomai
let ur junior treat u n tell u how chaotic he's been!!!
especially U the only girl ive given a drawing to
n U the girl who got me searching bookstore after bookstore to find nicholas spark books for
n U crazy woman who i stopped talking to bc i said u looked like a kpop idol (which wasnt a lie n i had 20/20 vision)
and when i wilt
i will see
how lovely i made my garden to be
as the petals drown out my worries
as the leaves claim my body
as the scent carry my memory
they will bloom
i will smell the flowers from the seeds i planted
they will bloom in this barren garden
i will make it so
it matters not how harsh the weather
it matters not how course the soil
it matters not how many years it's been
it matters not how tired i am
they will bloom
they will grow to cover everything i see
they will look softer than i ever could be
they will paint the sky, the river, the land
they will be what i want the world to be
they will bloom
not because they're supposed to
but because i will make it so
love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love
It gets better, it always does.
I wrote this in november, added more in december, even more in january.
I keep it around so that I remember after I unconsciously suppress the memories, so that I can always remember how it felt to be at rock bottom