If it is being a prisoner of the present transitioning from the past to the future, I have the illusion of free will. And I'm happy to live in that illusion in the knowledge that I don't.
I score extremely high on openness/creativity dimensions but very low on conscientiousness. I can generate novel ideas all day but I seriously don't want to work on any of them as they get boring to me the second after I think of it 🤭