“But you survived” I disassociate, like a lot. My heart drops when someone raises their voice. I shut down very easily. And I'm far too observant. I always feel like a burden. I isolate often. But yeah, sure, I guess I survived.
WHY AM I SO FAR BEHIND EVERYONE MY AGE?? WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME TO DO THE SAME THINGS AS EVERYONE ELSE ??WHY CANT I JUST BE NORMAL AND NOT STRUGGLE OR BE SCARED OF EVERYTHING
This year I’ve realised that things that “aren’t that deep” are actually 6ft deep. Friends not supporting you, not saying happy birthday to you, not making an effort with you or congratulating you on your achievements. All that shit is deep and i’m not having anymore of it
nothing will ruin a friendship for me faster than watching someone show up for their other friends in a way they don’t show up for me. you have the capacity, just not for our friendship? no thanks.
I wanna marry into a funcional family... when they have cookouts, game nights, holiday dinners and bday parties...I wanna be able to go get breakfast with my mother in law & go shopping with their siblings. I don't want it to be just "US" I want a family that's oriented.