@FisayoLonge Oh my god this sounds like something that happened to me last year and it nearly destroyed me. I feel the pain of this for you on the deepest level babe. Really.
“I have no idea what each one symbolizes emotively. I just pick out the picture I like.”
- my mom after asking her why she sent me a pancake emoji. Or pancake “picture” according to her. 🙄😂😂
But today I thought, why not buy a new beautiful ring for myself and wear it on my engagement finger? Because while I’m not to be engaged, I am very much in love. With myself.
So for the last few months I’ve been wearing this gold ring on what is traditionally my engagement finger. I’ve been asked why, if I’m engaged and so on. I’m not.
I know it’s Christmas but I miss my job(s). I miss my gross gym. I miss waking up at 5 am. I miss all the things most people love to skip at this time of the year.
I think above all I’m looking for a specific kind of love from a man. That’s not to say men won’t or haven’t loved me. It is just very hard, impossible almost for me to find a love that doesn’t feel mediocre. Just because it’s love doesn’t mean it’s right or enough.