Neurodivergent modern subject

Haunted & disturbed

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Proportionate relationship between how much ADHD medication I have taken and the frequency with which I bump into walls/doors

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Much much practice in letting go; autistic sensibility is to reflexively rage - only middle way I can think of is to use Socratic method i.e. be a smartarse. Small enlightenments perhaps possible

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

The only job I have been successful and lasting in is the one in which the autistic manager put a stop to all of the bullshit and forced everybody to be clear and precise

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

My biggest hurdle to co-existing peacefully in this society is that I can't just acquiesce to blatant bullshit

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

The lacuna in western philosophy is Buddhism

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

I see why now the last three years of being medicated have resulted in me doing pretty much the same things every day, i.e. becoming "more autistic" when medicated as somebody with both conditions. Overall, I would choose medication, though the Dionysian drive is somewhat missed.

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Taking a break from ADHD meds to see what happens. Current observations: i) started a task I do every morning and got 5 minutes in before I gave up; ii) couldn't even start the next task I normally do every day

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

iii) food and music much more compelling + rewarding; iv) big desire to seek out novelty; sense of boredom or listlessness and craving; v) overall sense of fun is heightened, but I feel quite useless.

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Happens to the best of us

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Psych patient/addict ---> practising Buddhist pipeline

[Heather Cook 🦓🖖Autistic Coach @hmm_cook]

Autistic burnout is basically a situation when you’ve done too much, for too long, with too little support. And your body, mind, spirit, is trying to protect you by shutting down so that you can’t overexert any more on this harmful path.

#AutisticBurnout #Burnout #Autistic

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Back bc Autscape + reflections on living well with autism/ADHD

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

This community has been a great aid during times of hardship & isolation. However I also see the harm in dwelling in suffering, which is what this platform often becomes for me. So farewell for now, may we all find peace and compassion in the face of suffering

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Very excited to soon stop more of my dealings with the NHS, ironically a source of chronic stress and burnout in my life. It really is exhausting trying to make people who don't understand you provide you with adequate care.

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Medical cannabis is making a big difference to my quality of life. I've now tried 6 different mainstream psych meds and they all either did nothing or made me considerably worse.

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

The things that have actually had demonstably positive effects on my wellbeing are *checks notes* cannabis, MDMA, ketamine, small amounts of alcohol and nicotine.

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

What are the people who are not breaking down every experience into multiple categories and then finding ways to synthesise them into systems thinking about?

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

have spent the last six weeks laying in a dark room not moving apart to get up to eat the same cereal 3x a day

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Had one friend in primary school & she was also autistic. She was excellent at STEM whilst I was good at the arts & humanities, she's now working for some nuclear engineering firm probably living in a mansion whilst I am terminally unemployed, burnt out &

[Neurodivergent modern subject @autaimonia]

Calling my next cats Tetra and Cannabinoid