ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

23ㅣedtwtㅣpriv @avasothersideㅣ5‘4ㅣSW : 109.3kgㅣCW : 74.5 ㅣBMI 28

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

locking in guys. i’ve done worst than this before so i know i can do it.

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

mom made food and i don’t wanna eat any of it. i don’t even know how many cals this is. pls someone estimate for me pls ? eggs (dk how much) two knacks shared for 3 people, one or two cheddar slices + mayo that i prob won’t eat #edtwt #cals

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i think i have to disappear soon. i’m the worst and even when people try to help im mean. i don’t have anything that brings me joy anymore.

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

how do i get loved ? what’s so wrong with me ? i feel like nothing is ever enough. i’ll give myself entirely and end up with nothing

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i love being high on meds

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i’m crashing out about everything in my life

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

idk why i get to this point to notice how disgusting i am. genuinely how tf did i get back to my STARTING WEIGHT.

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

being fat, then losing the weight and gaining it all back really is crazy. there’s so many privileges when you’re thin like i swear i’ve never been so cared for than when i was skinny and now that im back to being fat no one cares about me anymore 💀

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

haven’t slept in 29 hours

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

okay well i’m still sick, i need to wake up in 3 hours for work and my period hurts so much that im nauseous 🥰

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

made an appeal and then it got refused and he’s still going to criminal court 🥰

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

mhhh what else. my abuser is gonna go to trial !! finally. i don’t have a date yet for the trial but it’s gonna be in 2027. could’ve been this year but he decided to appeal on the court’s decision for him to go to criminal court so 😹

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

mhhh what else. my abuser is gonna go to trial !! finally. i don’t have a date yet for the trial but it’s gonna be in 2027. could’ve been this year but he decided to appeal on the court’s decision for him to go to criminal court so 😹

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i’m watching the pitt, literally watching a tv show for the first time in months because i saw so many tiktoks about it and i liked the characters and wanted to know more but there’s only 2 SEASONS and i hate waiting for new seasons 😖😖 but it’s really nice

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i’ve been sick all week literally since last sunday and now i’m on my period which is even worse because i’m still sick AND on my period AND i work this weekend 😝

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i’ve been accepted to university ! i’m studying law :> this year is gonna be online because i didn’t have a choice :/

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

anyways guys i’m gonna use twitter as my personal diary again because i don’t have friends or people who care enough to even listen a little bit to what i say

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i need to lose weight again :/ like genuinely 😭 i’m almost back to my starting weight

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i’m so ready to date again because i need to feel love and to give it back but it’s so hard to even find friends so imagine finding a partner 😹 ugh idk..

[ava ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @avasboringlife]

i hope when i finally die they’ll feel bad