i hate myself so much, why am i like this? why can’t i just be fucking normal. i will ruin everything with how bitchy and moody i am. i hate it so much. i don’t deserve love, so why does it keep on finding me. is it just to hurt me over and over? i am scared of ruining him.
just broke of with my bf of almost 2 years (2 weeks away)
yall did i make a mistake? or is it the guilt talking? or the fact i love him even though im used to him? or that i just got used to our routine and me being autistic making it worse?
am i overthinking this all? probably