This account will probably be inactive from now on. There's too many painful memories associated with Empty Spaces for me, and not nearly enough happy ones to make up for it.
@Ruby_Dusk Nah they'd probably be into it, we should just send them all to an island or something so they can leave those of us who didn't consent to being involved in their weird racist fetish in peace instead of bothering us all
Why even bother continuing to live if nobody will accept me
I don't have anyone who I can share my deepest thoughts and feelings with that will understand and affirm them, and nobody who's both willing and able to help me in the ways I need
And now I'm convinced I never will
Autistic Traumaqueers: I hate the way allistics expect me to read the world through six different invisible layers, it's bullshit!
Also Autistic Traumaqueers: You said you were having a bad day and I'm part of your day so I figured I was making your day bad and was packing my b-
@Winterflan Right, like, if I wanted to be subjected to unpleasant things by someone who actually loathed my presence I'd just spend more time with my dad.
Tbh I wish there was more romantic hard traumakink stuff.
Just callous cruelty doesn't do much for me. Gaslighting, beating, lobotomies, torture, murder, whatever... It can be hot to me, but only if they somehow genuinely love their victim despite the apparent contradiction.