Aven

ꕥ ugw: 40kg • cw: 51.3kg • BMI: 18.2
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ꕥ pr0recov3ry • not f@tph0bic

[Aven @avens_diary]

Okay guys if i calculate my bmr using my ugw and eat under the bmr it presents then i should reach my ugw with that right? or am i stupid?

[Aven @avens_diary]

ugh im so bloated rn 😭 fucking hate menstrual cycles

[Aven @avens_diary]

https://t.co/Xe4b5l1ZAO

one of my fav cal websites

[Aven @avens_diary]

just love me. please. play with my hair. hold me close. tell me it'll be okay. say it over and over. until i can breathe. fill me with life again. please just stay with me. I don't need anything more. just see me. stay with me.

[Aven @avens_diary]

where is the meaning?
when did it leave?
i want it back.

[Aven @avens_diary]

When did life become so mind numbing

[Aven @avens_diary]

Is someone's attention too much to ask?

[Aven @avens_diary]

its scary how pointless everything is

[Aven @avens_diary]

it doesnt matter if you love me with everything you have if i dont feel it. im sorry i cannot feel it. im trying to

[Aven @avens_diary]

such a silly thing, the need to be noticed and understood

[Aven @avens_diary]

im so tired of feeling this void inside

[Aven @avens_diary]

i want to converse about the theory of life with someone who wants to understand it with the same passion as me

[Aven @avens_diary]

i like imagining people in my head that'll give me the connection i desire.

[Aven @avens_diary]

People are always too busy for me

[Aven @avens_diary]

i just want someone to take care of me. i crave a connection that doesn't exist

[Aven @avens_diary]

Isn't it funny that we all go things together but we all still feel so alone no matter how violently and widely we pry ourselves open? I can let someone consume me entirely and still feel so utterly alone

[Aven @avens_diary]

I don't know what I want to become. I just know I don't want to be this anymore.

[Aven @avens_diary]

i will become the love i so desperately need.
i will become the love i so desperately need.
i will become the love i so desperately need.
i will become the love i so desperately need.
i will become the love i so desperately need.
i will become the love i so desperately need.

[Aven @avens_diary]

it's such a sad feeling. knowing I'll never be loved the way I need

[mari ☾ @ikusaiii]

“listen to your body” my body wants 2k cals of sushi