𝐯𝐚𝐧.

[ً @aslovewept]

i’m proud of myself for surviving things i shouldn’t have.

[ً @holyaches]

i will always have nightmares of that day. no matter how much time has passed，i will always remember. the nightmares will never allow me to forget. i will never allow myself to forget.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

yawn — good … shit, good evening.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

can’t sleep, headed out for a late night walk.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

ok back to bed

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

woke up to remind you all to not let physical media die

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

revolutionary. so fun

[𝙨͟𝙝͟𝙖͟𝙪͟𝙣͟𝙖. @pastbutchered]

. . congrats?

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

discovered iPhone games

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“that’s fair..”

a shrug, nodding. “id want a pet again, but that’s probably not a smart decision right now, all things considered.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

“maybe my parents just didn’t trust me with a pet.”

after what he did to riley? it’s no wonder… “twig’s mostly outside. vet and i agreed it’d be better for him. it’s all he knows and, considering my schedule…” trailing off.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

weather reporters get paid to lie and I think that’s very unfair

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“it was a cheap pet and I don’t do dogs … thought about a cat but never got one.”

a small laugh, shrugging. “fish was easy, you don’t have to do much.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

“a 𝘧𝘪𝘴𝘩?”

brows furrowing, laughing. “i never understood the whole pet thing in general, but 𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 not 𝙛𝙞𝙨𝙝…”

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“I love it.”

a small laugh, nodding. “there’s nothing wrong with spoiling a pet. I had a fish a few years ago … spoiled that thing to hell and then it fuckin’ died.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

“he kind of looked like one when i found him. he was also chewing on one, the dumbass…” laughing softly. “now he’s spoiled and i’m not sure where i went wrong in my life to spoil a dog this much.”

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“nah, it’s all good don’t worry.”

head shaking, sighing. “twig — that’s a good name.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

“i still feel bad,” they admit, sighing and shaking their head.

“either way, his name’s twig.”

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“oh! yes — right, right. i remember.”

eyes screwing shut then, she’s nodding. “the comparison was funny.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

“ah, more or less!”

taking caution with the subject. he’s more than aware of their first conversation and how 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 went. “the dog i mentioned in our first meeting. the one i compared you to?” that’s… one way to jog someone’s memory.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“you have a dog?”

laughing softly, brows raising. “sounds like he wants attention.” a small smile … she’s not much of a dog person … not so great history with them.

“i appreciate that — I’ll keep it in mind too, or try to at least.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

“in a way, it makes sense. it takes away the last bit of control you feel you have.”

smiling a little. “of course. i hope you know that despite the circumstances, if you just want someone to talk to, you can call. anytime. if i don’t

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“just hate asking for help, you know? ironic, considering im dying..”

a forced laugh that time. “but thanks for listening and trying to get me in. i appreciate it.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

a sigh of their own, nodding, though probably only their dog can see. “that… would have been ideal. but i’m glad that you called anyway. better late than never, or whatever my mother says.”

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“no more pocket food.”

laughing again then, sighing. “i probably should’ve called sooner, hm? ive been feeling off for a bit.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

chuckling softly, putting their phone on the counter and nearly forgetting to put it on speaker. oops?

“i think that’s a great goal. no more pocket food.”

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“yeah..” a small sigh, shrugging again. “either way — the goal is to not eat anymore pocket food, or keep anything else obscure in there.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

momentarily pausing everything they were doing, ready to listen, but only to resume back to finding—— oh, there it is!

“i… i understand that. at least, in the way i interpreted it.” shaking their head. 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

“I wish I could tell you.”

shaking her head, sighing. “maybe old trauma shit from … yeah. but i just felt like I couldn’t waste it? it was … not enjoyable.”

[ †   ᴜɴ𝓈͟𝑎͟𝑖͟𝑛͟𝑡͟𝑒𝑑 ． @sawthroughskin]

laughing along with her, though nearly dropping their phone in the process of finding out where the hell twig’s food went.

“and, uh, what made you think that eating it was a good idea?”

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

… cereal in my pockets today.

[𝐯𝐚𝐧. @avertedeath]

… made friends with a possum.