i can't keep lying to myself, saying i'm going to change. i'm poison. i come from poison. i have poison inside me and i destroy everything i touch. that's my legacy.
what doesn’t kill you leaves disfiguring scars. what doesn’t kill you fills you with paralyzing self—hatred. what doesn’t kill you makes you afraid for the rest of your life. what doesn’t kill you might make you kill them.
( wide awake again … sleep seems far too impossible by now 🌀 … )
( the dark circles are fated to get worse , it seems )