el 🫝

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[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I have nothing going for me and .my life is actively falling apart

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Its like im faking everything in real life im huge ugly and nobody sees me as anything close to a man im fucking round in the stomach i'm an atrocious excuse of an individual there is nothing i can do i hope everything collapses and i don't make it out this time

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Im sorry i dknt have the mental willpower to even commit to being sick in my head im just not gonna fucking make it how can i be bad at hating myself you'd think there would be one tjing thst i could be good at

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I might have to log out or somrthing i tried to mute notifs hut i keep getting them i already know im fat i just feel fucking inadequate and i hate myself i spend my entire life comparing myself to everyone else

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I don't want anyone to think about the fact i'm built like a fucking barrel

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

It's a weird fucking insecurity i feel so toxic but when everyone on pinterest is all skinny and cute and well dressed and i'm not and my partner i love to death is a big scroller it makes me want to die really fucking bad

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I have to let the relapse consume me lol

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Been teetering on the edge for weeks idk how long i can keep this up

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I want something bad to happen to me!

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I dont know what i want

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Been binging a lot i feel a sick sense of guilt even though there's no one being disappointed. Probably. I keep going back and forth between eating and not i am such a failure but yeah

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Kinda wanna cry

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

I hate my body its over forever

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Glad yall liked this one

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Bottom dysphoria is rly embarrassing like ok yeah i don't have a dick Whatever

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Bad days both calorically and otherwise

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Whatever I'm doing got to be abusive

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Brought up the hypothetical and he got dry over text left me on read got quiet irl and isnt even responding to jokes qhat did i fuck up

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Yeah it's over hes gonna n leave me prolly

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Yeah it's over hes gonna n leave me prolly

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Binged last night so im trying to offset it with the worlds worst omad + ye olde energy drink and gum

[el 🫝 @awsmktty]

Sorry all my tweets r about being gay af