Going numb on someone feels so good. When you’re numb to them you just don’t care. If they’re in your life, cool. If they’re not, also cool. But there’s NO desire nor hate for them at all. Truly at peace with it.
i realized that no one, not even my mother or closest friends knows what i’m actually like in the inside of my head, and the only person who actually knows who i am is me
the longer i go without something, the more i'm okay with never having it again. and once i detach from someone or something completely, reconnection with me becomes impossible because i know what it took for me to finally let go. once i'm done, i'm done.
once i start looking at you differently, it's a wrap. no amount of apologies will fix it. i'm not even mad at you, you're just so weird to me now. that goes for family, friends, relationships all that.