Without the surrounding text, it makes the line even more deadly tragic when you read it as “they think I fell (in love) on purpose”. Like his love could have been helped or planned. Like a persons love could be made with the intention to threaten or deceive anybody else
“they think i fell on purpose” is such a fucking symbolic line and we don’t talk about it enough.
it’s every fear shane ever had about coming out, culminating in this exact moment that proves they were justified. the point is he can do anything. he can climb to the top and be the best in the damn league but it doesn’t matter. as long as he’s who he is (a queer person of colour), they were always going to be waiting for him to fall.
They would not have survived having a rare-pair ship for an unpopular anime circa 2016. But the rest of us did. THINK FOR YOURSELVES, BRING BACK THE DAYDREAMERS!!! If you don’t like someone’s work, then fuck off and go imagine something that does bring you joy!!! So easy
The HR fandom is so greedy… why is everyone demanding fics and links? Can no one appreciate a good Drabble anymore? Can’t we just build upon each others ideas and ruminate?
This is also my theory as to why the AI allegations bullshit is getting so bad. The new people coming into fandom spaces cannot think up stories for themselves, so they cannot fathom when anyone else does
Making sure Shane doesn’t have to lift a finger. Maybe when Shane is injured bruised and battered, he weakly calls for “Ilya, moy sladkiy”, because he needs to be babied but can’t bring himself to ask. Ilya will ask questions in a way so Shane only ever has to nod a yes or no.
#Hollanov thought where Shane starts to develop a language of nicknames with Ilya, to explain what he’s feeling without actually having to /explain/ because it can be so hard to be outwardly expressive
“Moy sladkiy” when he needs Ilya to take care of him, to be sweet with him obviously. Overtired and overworked, the term is a cry for help. Ilya knows just how to help as soon as Shane says it coming through the door. Unlacing his shoes, undressing him, getting ready for bed.