jasper

23 DNI if ur not 3dtwt cw:114.2 lbs gw: 110lbs ugw: 100 lbs they/them

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Taking a massive shit at work and then cleaning the bathroom is one of the best things bc I can hide that I’m shitting during a rush with just the fact that I can say I was cleaning it (I’m gonna do a bit more than normal anyways)

[jasper @b33b1tch]

And then on top of that it’s like a 20 min wait after I get matched with a driver.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

One of my coworkers covered my shift today and I’m covering one of my other coworkers shifts tonight. But uber is taking like 20 min to even give me a ride and I’m gonna be late

[jasper @b33b1tch]

I am so goddamned tired. Got to school too late for my first class, so I started to study in the library but I feel like I’m about to fall asleep

[jasper @b33b1tch]

And I told her that I could not be interrupted and if she was going to interrupt me this much to let me know so I could go to the library. Now it’s almost 10pm and I have to go to bed soon but I haven’t finished studying (it’s open note but my notes are not legible)

[jasper @b33b1tch]

I should’ve gone to the library to study but instead I went to my moms shop to use her desk but I don’t think she understands that I have to get up early in the morning and take this test. I’m not even done with the 3rd chapter and I’ve been working on this chapter for 2 hours

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Went to Publix to get tea, protein shakes and hydrocolloid bandages: they were out of the protein shakes I like, I forgot to get the bandages and I got two bags of chips bc there was a bogo. Idk what I’m gonna do with these.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

I’m having BAD cramps at work

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Was going to go on a walk and then study but I have work tonight :/

[jasper @b33b1tch]

But like I really thought this would be the one where I would be able to delete dating apps and actually have a relationship form.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Like I know I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up. I know. But I still wished. I thought we got along well and i think we did until I fucked it all up. And I don’t think being on my period has helped

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Like I know I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up. I know. But I still wished. I thought we got along well and i think we did until I fucked it all up. And I don’t think being on my period has helped

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Next one and then on the way home get told that they don’t see us going anywhere. This time I didn’t even get to the first date! Is something so intrinsically wrong with me? Anyways just got home so I’ll reply to them.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Also feeling like replying “alright well thanks for letting me know” sounds not the best but I have thought abt this for almost 6 hours (the entire shift) and that’s the best I came up with. I just wish we could have gone on one date at the very least. Makes me sad that I fucjed

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Texted today to tell me that they don’t think we fit well. So I definitely fucked it up. Sometimes I think I may not be meant for love bc usually I get to the first date before they tell me that we don’t fit well together or that they don’t see us going anywhere.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Alone forever? I haven’t had one good romantic relationship. I’ve gotten cheated on, told that they weren’t ready for a relationship even though we had been dating for months and they started dating their friend a week later, and then end the date making tentative plans for the

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Should’ve gotten an apple instead of chips. I don’t even want them.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Might drink my pbr that I’ve been saving. lol. It’s warm

[jasper @b33b1tch]

I haven’t even opened the text yet bc I’m at work and I needed to figure out what to say. But I think it will be along the lines of “alright well thanks for letting me know” bc I know i fucked up by being tired and bad at flirting

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Texted today to tell me that they don’t think we fit well. So I definitely fucked it up. Sometimes I think I may not be meant for love bc usually I get to the first date before they tell me that we don’t fit well together or that they don’t see us going anywhere.

[jasper @b33b1tch]

Yo I’m so tired but flirted with hinge match and apparently all my responses sounded “nonchalant” but really I was trying to figure out how to make my replies not sound so formal. And I was tired I was not nonchalant behind the screen