If you want to make the best impression, create yourself a positive slide. Imagine yourself the way you would like. When you create negative slides, you focus on what you don't like about yourself. You need to switch your attention to what you like and what you want to have.
If you fail, do not be offended that the world did not care if you had doubts about this. There is no need to be very upset, much less fight with doubts - it is useless. Leave room for mistakes and failures. The main thing is to maintain the basic course.
If your goal is to have a new home, don't look at it in your mind like a picture. Create a kind of virtual waking dream for yourself. Go into the house, walk through the rooms, touch all the things around you. You already have a house, pretend it's real.
Attention must be switched from the negative to everything positive. Give up on everything that annoyed you and stop fighting with yourself. Turn away from your shortcomings and turn your attention to the strengths you have and want to acquire.