Being around people and never really knowing how they feel about you can be extremely scary. I just pray that God continues to keep me covered, protect my heart, and give me discernment.
I feel everything at 100%. I’m naturally sensitive and empathetic. I pick up on ppls energy, their words, their actions, and even the smallest things other mfs probably wouldn’t think twice about. I care deeply and take a lot to heart, even when I don’t express ts. Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel things so deeply, but I never want to lose the heart I have bc of it.
we underestimate how tired one can be from just having too much on your mind. not even physically tired, just tired of remembering things, thinking ahead, fixing stuff, making decisions, being needed, trying to stay sane..it’s just too much
i fully understand why David prayed for God to create in him a clean heart and renew a right spirit within him. sometimes, the greatest battle is not with the people around us but with what is happening inside us. you can have a good heart and still need God to work on your attitude, your thoughts, your reactions and the things you struggle to control.