things I've learned don't mean anything:
-sleeping together
-meeting their family
-no protection
-talking about the future
- calling for hours
-"I love you"
No one talks about how painful it is to slowly accept that the happy home, the loyal partner, and the beautiful family you dreamed about might never happen. You can have a good heart, pure intentions, and endless love to give, and still end up empty-handed. Life is often unfair.
If I'm being honest, half the things I went through are in fact because of me, my lack of discipline, not listening to my gut feelings, and my poor decision-making.
Sometimes I don’t even know what’s happening in my life. Life keeps teaching me lessons I never asked for, giving me experiences I never wished to have. Yes, they made me stronger but honestly, I never wanted to become this strong. I just wanted a simple, happy heart.
I have to have talks with myself like girl you’re going to be okay! Everything is going to work out. Everything is going to come together. It always has & it always will.