🐧 am i someone that gets jealous a lot? i don’t know…am i? maybe? i actually think my emotions have become more abundant in comparison to when i debuted…i was basically a robot when i debuted. that’s how emotionless i was.
🐧 i feel like i was actually probably a T back then? how did i live back then? back then, i completely ruled out “emotions”.
🐧 input = output, i think that’s how i lived
🐧 i cried a lot when i was a trainee and then i had a sudden realization during my debut and i was basically a robot then…like input = output
🐧 “don’t reveal your emotions.” that was my mindset
🐧 that’s why, from the members’ perspective…them saying i was more mature during our debut could be true because i almost never showed my emotions to the members either
🐧 i think it’s just right now…because it used to be really extreme, both when i was a trainee and when i debuted…i think i found the balance.
🐧 i think i got better while having conversations with taehyun….since we used to share a room, talking to taehyun made it better little by little
“sieun: (after staring at him for a long while) ...suho-ya
for a moment, the tears sieun had been desperately holding back finally spill over. he breaks down... and starts crying like a child.
sieun: (sobbing) ngh... h-hic... ngh...
you said... hic ...you said we’d see each other tomorrow... sob ...tomorrow... hic...”
WHAT IF I ㅋㅁㅅ