i am strong
i am determined
i have self-control
i am an individual
i know what i want
i know my goals
i will not let others opinions or actions deter me
i can do this
berberine and l-carnitine low-key working because im getting full quicker and not feeling the need to eat a lot to satisfy my cravings
just gonna ignore the constant nausea
@mushroomfrugg its a weird body dysmorphia thing because I get jealous of ppl who can fit in childrens chairs (also because I always see some really good and cheap childrens chairs on eBay) 💔
why is purging so easy for everyone else and no matter how hard I try I cannot make myself throw up I was literally shoving a spoon down my throat and nothing
i gen feel like there's something wrong with me bc I cannot binge everyone makes it out like it's a guaranteed eventuality for an-r but I've never binged the only times I feel like I binge is when I've eaten a normal amount of food or slightly above but I don't lose control
desperately need to lose weight it would be so easy to slip down to dangerous numbers but I really don't want to deal with everything that comes with it. appointments, referrals, hospital, weights, time off. putting my life on pause. but food has become scary again
this is bad but sometimes I think about causing myself lasting damage to my stomach or digestive system so I don't absorb food anymore and just throw it up. i have tried over and over again to make myself sick n it doesn't work. im wondering if i microdosed w something harmful
Now 53.3kg and I've just had dinner. Idk why I'm losing weight I'm not even trying. Might have to make a doctor's appointment aha I think it might be my gastro issues