annabel ☕️

i can't rly call this recovery anymore @somemoreanna bmi 17s

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

i am strong
i am determined
i have self-control
i am an individual
i know what i want
i know my goals
i will not let others opinions or actions deter me
i can do this

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

berberine and l-carnitine low-key working because im getting full quicker and not feeling the need to eat a lot to satisfy my cravings

just gonna ignore the constant nausea

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

i simultaneously want this body back and think it was not thin enough

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

UK besties pls share your favourite low cal vegan snacks 🙏🏼

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

I feel so nauseous all the time but I don't throw up part of me wishes I would throw up so I can lose weight

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

@mushroomfrugg its a weird body dysmorphia thing because I get jealous of ppl who can fit in childrens chairs (also because I always see some really good and cheap childrens chairs on eBay) 💔

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

why is purging so easy for everyone else and no matter how hard I try I cannot make myself throw up I was literally shoving a spoon down my throat and nothing

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

i really struggle with trusting hunger cues so I just always assume I'm not hungry but sometimes I wish I could binge so that I would feel truly full

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

i gen feel like there's something wrong with me bc I cannot binge everyone makes it out like it's a guaranteed eventuality for an-r but I've never binged the only times I feel like I binge is when I've eaten a normal amount of food or slightly above but I don't lose control

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

@yunahhdoves lolyou don't get more niche than north wales

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

i desperately need all of this fat off of me

i hate being disabled i need to work out

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

desperately need to lose weight it would be so easy to slip down to dangerous numbers but I really don't want to deal with everything that comes with it. appointments, referrals, hospital, weights, time off. putting my life on pause. but food has become scary again

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

i bought it

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

relapse is looming i keep on putting a scale in my amazon basket and then removing it again

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

maintaining the cusp of uw is so weird like it would be so easy to become dangerously underweight again but I just don't

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

need to live alone like right fucking now

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

I yearn to be smaller and petite I hate my bone structure and height i need to lose weight i want to look fragile

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

this idea popped in my head again recently even though I'm like mostly recovered now

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

this is bad but sometimes I think about causing myself lasting damage to my stomach or digestive system so I don't absorb food anymore and just throw it up. i have tried over and over again to make myself sick n it doesn't work. im wondering if i microdosed w something harmful

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

Kinda sad 😭 #MyXAnniversary

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

Just weighed myself in the morning and it 52.4 🥴

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

53.6kg. not bad. not good.

[annabel ☕️ @bakerexic]

Now 53.3kg and I've just had dinner. Idk why I'm losing weight I'm not even trying. Might have to make a doctor's appointment aha I think it might be my gastro issues