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Ed twt 𖧵 poc/black 𖧵 she/her 𖧵 19 | 165cm | hw 62kg | lw 45 | a chill vent

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Not doing well

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Rand morning body check since I ate so much last night

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@blackcalorie Spot onn

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@fairycakegirl Eating the same 3 foods constantly, not looking at labels anymore, not weighing myself every morning, not binging on food I don't even really want :) I mainly have being to busy all the time to blame but honestly working all the time has helped the habits die over time

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Last time I was under 100 lbs I was probably 12 or something...shocker

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If only I could tell my younger self that I currently eat regularly everyday and am healthier and smaller than I ever was. I so dearly wish I could tell her it's okay to eat. It's. Okay. To. Eat.

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Maybe chubby even

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What's crazy is me being at my lw for nearly a year now, comfortably, but looking entirely different and way smaller than I did all the other times I had reached it. Someone would be so quick to say I'm unhealthy now while the me that was starving then would be deemed healthy

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@calk1ll3r What💀💀

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I no longer starve myself and am in a much healthier (somewhat) relationship with food. And with this realization I've noticed that knowing how to style your clothes to fit your body leaves me with a lot less self hatred :)

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@bitespo Makes a very big difference

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I'm kinda thinking about coming back on edtwt more actively, anyone want to be new moots?

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My boyfriend eats less than I do and will rarely eat unless I'm getting smth too... I guess I do win at life sometimes

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Also hi. I kinda disappeared lol but I do be Iurking from time to time

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Crazy I used to daydream about being the size I am but now I struggle to keep the weight on

111 lbs / 50 kg

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I'm still not that small but not mad with my body. Considering I literally eat everything, no longer restrict and am still losing little by little every month I don't think starving to lose more will benefit me atp

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Deleted all of my body checks in my room cuz y'all play too much💀

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@nwncals 💃

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@arctic_bones_ 2350😃had I seen this a year ago I know it'd be no more than 300 lol crazy

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@youscals 18, my first was extremely toxic last summer and now I'm in one that I cry every two days about its honestly not worth it <3