like the moon in the morning

kat || 30’s / nyc / the weakest brûlée ❤️❤️❤️ can bench you & cry while doing it don’t try me

[Kness @_kness]

65 cute whale sharks to brighten your day 🦐

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Pro tip to keeping the train crazies away from you: just straight up cry like you’re equally crazy

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

The kid in the elevator today made me smile- he was funny and chatty and unembarrassed about it even though his father was. I’m sure his father was relieved he wasn’t in an elevator with another jerk who snapped at him or pointedly ignored his kid like he was annoying.

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Maybe that was true, at one point. Because I never stood up for myself. Because subconsciously I knew that wasn’t a sustainable life for the me at that time, so what was the point of being good with kids? But that’s not the point at all. Why adopt a diametric persona?

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

I do have an issue with loud noises, but I don’t think anyone looks at a kid throwing a mega meltdown and goes “love that behavior, absolutely, go nuts!!!” But it had gotten to the point where people associated me with not wanting to be near, or even in the same room as kids.

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

You align yourself with & often adopt the traits of, the people you spend the most time with, & I fell into the habit of not speaking to or engaging with children. What a horrible trait to adopt. I love children and animals. Why would I allow someone to change me like that?

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

In some ways, I am much more callous now. I know. I just… care less. I am unwilling to hurt myself in the name of anyone but myself. But, strangely, I feel free to be kind in ways I thought had become vestigial.

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

should probably see if I’m still my therapists client or if I should look for someone new but also I can’t muster the ability to care

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[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Very likely this is August speaking. Truly the Worst Month.

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

blah blah there’s no time frame whatever but I really hate that this part of my life is happening in my 30’s instead of my 20’s like why did I DO that to myself

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

can you imagine making your entire personality about being as Annoying as Humanly Possible ???

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

feel like I already never get to use my phone on the train so what am I really missing out on by driving my bike to work? Might as well pay attn to the fucking road instead of frustrating myself over shitty train reception

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

it’s the entitlement & resultant LAZINESS that drives me out of my fuckinh MIND. I spent 2 hours with these residents fumbling through a vascath placement, setting up the CVVH, and literally had to go into the COVID room every subsequent 20minutes. You couldn’t stand up ONCE,,?

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Honest to god I’m so tired of this preferential treatment these pregnant nurses get. We’re ALL tired and we ALL want to cherry pick our assignments and REFUSE covid patients. Do I have to get inseminated to get a fuckin break???????????

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Apparently my joggers are so big on me i “look like a genie” lmfao I fucking can’t

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Why is the gym so hard today I got here why is my body not cooperating

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Dear people who don’t understand what noise sensitivity is,

what’s life like for you???

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

I’m soooo SO SOOOOOOO fucking sure this transfer was necessary today. On a holiday. SO SURE. VERY HIGH PRIORITY.

[like the moon in the morning @barebarus]

Things I love:
one patient being 160kg and patient then getting another- THANKSGIVING TRANSFER- that is 130kg yES PLEASE CRUSH ME JUST MAKE IT LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO DO ANYTHING BY MYSELF