⚠️ The deepest irony of a man who can not quench his curiosity, is his fear for hypocrisy.
Yet, every human being has survived because of selective blindness.
Parents have loved imperfect children.
Friends have forgiven.
Soldiers have laughed.
Doctors have become emotionally detached.
Workers, who have continued to show compassion even after seeing cruelty from their bosses.
Civilisation itself now depends upon strategically incomplete perception(s).
Absolute clarity is often incompatible with ordinary living.
The wisest people throughout history were not those who saw everything, they were those who knew what not to stare at forever.
Nietzsche eventually stared into the abyss.
Dostoevsky stared back toward humanity.
Different endings…
If you are a fairly masculine man with an aura of authority and potency about you, you will find (especially as you get older) that you are a magnet for adversarial, argumentative women wanting to "challenge you" so they can re-enact their daddy issues - the unresolved tension they feel between desiring the masculine, and wanting to fight it - a complex triggered within them any time a "real man" pings on their radar.
You are kryptonite to these women, because they cannot properly classify you - they cannot easily dismiss you as insufficiently masculine (weak, cowardly) or insufficiently clever (a dumb brute) - the result: a brewing obsession that expresses itself as a need to constantly challenge you, even though she is not your wife, and if she was your wife and another woman behaved towards you in exactly the way she is, she would view her as seriously out of line and ceremoniously fantasise about committing crimes against her.
In these socially decaying times, these types of women are fairly common. Ugly women, are, unfortunately - everywhere - because weak men create ugly and frustrated women who impose themselves at any and every opportunity that they get, and we have many weak men.
This is why every time some random woman crashes out on you, or is particularly unhinged and spiteful or forcefully confrontational, you must realise this is not really about you, but that you are merely a trigger for her, an inflection point - what you are dealing with is the accumulated psychic rot of another man's failures spilling out onto you in discourse, with you as the intended target for his perceived crimes.
As a repository of masculine force, insight and order, you are still very attractive to women who do not know how to properly handle and honour you, so you must spiritually protect yourself from them. The resentful and shameless are parasitic and all too happy to form a negative attachment to you if you let them.
But you must give them nothing. They are the problems of their fathers, and where they have them - husbands. She is not yours to fix or endure.
Your judgement, wisdom, oversight, rationality - all your creative energies and potency as a man must be spent on managing your kingdom, and directed at expanding your empire. These resources should not be squandered on the failed wives and daughters who gravitate towards the greater masculine strength beyond the walls of their homes, that they falsely believe they can become relevant to through disrespect.
You cannot allow random frustrated women to spiritually tax you, because they are husbandless, or their husband is pathetic, or their father did a bad job - or one of 10,000 other reasons, because she sees you not as a man, but "as a symbol of masculine authority that needs to be torn down".
You are not answerable to random unpleasant women. You do not need to handhold them through their frustrations, clear up the sloppiness in their thinking, correct their misunderstandings, help them better relate to a concept, introduce a nuance they did not consider, soothe their nervous systems with your patience and understanding, or anything else - because you owe them quite literally nothing. You are not their father, nor their husband. They are literal strangers.
You were not put on this Earth to deal with infinite negativity from random women, because other men are failing horribly to nourish, cultivate and properly police the women they are responsible for.
Good women know better than to impose themselves on random men, and don't step up by undermining, criticising and dropping all their grievances on your lap. A healthy woman does not try to agitate a man into giving her attention, and you as a man should know better than to reward bad behaviour with even negative acknowledgement. This is why you must treat the chattering hordes of angry zombies the same way you would a narcissist - you give them nothing. Do not reward their aggression with even the tiniest slither of attention - punish it with complete and total silence. Not even your contempt should be theirs to savour.
⚠️ Funerals are for the dead; they give suffering form. And yet, on a normal day, you'll realise they exist for the living.
Nonetheless, being denied the chance to lay down a loved one whose admiration of you breathed purpose into your life is the most devastating feeling I’m yet to come to terms with.
“In the bleak midwinter.”
The smartphone really revolutionized the waiting room. Oh I get 20 minutes to look at my phone? Don’t mind if I do. The only problem is sometimes when I’m looking at my phone at home my home starts to feel like a waiting room and I realize it is and I’m just waiting to die
⚠️ Why, if you are so clever, do you lie in your rags of a bed like a sack and have nothing to show for it?
Do you think your fortune will come to you all at once?
Only if she is strong enough to handle man's brutality, is she strong enough to be trusted with man's beauty. A woman too weak to handle cutting truths can never be a sanctuary for man's heart, for she will crumble - perhaps even turn on him - when he needs her most.