Esme

My fave bands are Malodorous Sputum, Cremastreric Response, and Yell Gibson

[Esme @basicallyesme]

So. We told our kindergarten aged daughter that bears lay eggs, that it was new science recently discovered. She totally bought it (of course) and someday we'll get a note home from school, but it's completely worth it.

[The After Disaster @AfterDisaster]

still reeling from our scientific breakthrough in regards to bears

[Esme @basicallyesme]

One weight is lifted, and then replaced with another. This new weight im happy to carry. Its less cumbersome, even if its just as heavy.

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@MikeyLikesYou1 @MikeCatherwood So im not trying to lose weight, actually losing it too easily cuz medication. I forget to eat until night time cuz my life is chaos. Mostly my diet consists of what my kids don't finish. What are some easy but affordable high protien snacks to keep my energy up?

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@laxdude Ahh yes, thanks for that reminder. I s'pose i should do the easter basket shopping before all of Wisconsin shuts down. Nothing special but the chitlins deserve to still get chocolate even if we're stuck at home

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@Firstladyoflove they sometimes bank episodes of long form interviews, i think @drdrew would be a fantastic interview, the show plays clips of drew in a really positive way on a semi regular basis, they're pragmatic and mostly logical

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@drdrew @Firstladyoflove drew is on the no agenda show Sunday episode, check out https://t.co/6QPuWpyQG3 the latest episide, "toilet preppers" at about 00:31:20

[Esme @basicallyesme]

Maybe i went a little overboard telling him if he ever treated another human being like he treated me ill haunt his dreams, if im dead or alive.

Also, apparently he didn't mean it when he pulled the divorce card out again recently. Sadly for him i meant it when i agreed.

[Esme @basicallyesme]

I think ill move out of this house soon. Things in the works. I just can't see staying here with all these memories inside this house. Even if they worked out with him. Which they won't. And im not gonna keep waiting, he had his millionth and third chance, AGAIN, and he wasted it

[Esme @basicallyesme]

...instead of giving him the opportunity to get me back. I don't think i could ever forgive what happened that night but certainly not after his inability to be humble and take responsibility. He can't NOT blame me for it. For all of it. Good riddance

[Esme @basicallyesme]

Finally got tired enough of ther roller coaster and just took my ring off after a kinda fucked up conversation. I finally know more who i am and what i deserve and i don't deserve to have my heart thrown around ever again.

[Esme @basicallyesme]

Ok not fucked up, just more of the same. He wants the divorce again because im "not trying"... just more of the same. Ive given up on him changing. Im over the heartbreak. Have your divorce and leave me the fuck alone. Should have just filed immediately like i almost did...

[Esme @basicallyesme]

Patience is a virtue, but so is having a healthy sense of self worth. Working on marrying those two concepts. I have become the "boundary police" and will be for the foreseeable future

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire I love you too, hit me up on messenger today when you're not busy

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire @Mikel_Jollett But indeed a wall will not do shit. He's dumb (about many other things also...)if he thinks he'll get leeway on the wall using the outbreak as an excuse or proof of need. Real dumb.

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire @Mikel_Jollett Its basically uncontainable from what I've heard. Even her majesty Hillary wouldn't have been able to completely prevent this. And also, ther flu is statistically a little deadlier. But panic makes the media money....

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire But yes im listening. These four words, stoic tennets, are helping me navigate this mess: courage, wisdom, justice, temperance. I can only do what i think is best for my family, and my support team, including you, are all factors in this.

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire But that's why im still waiting. Waiting with armor up and all my guards at attention. The immediate danger passed and now we just wait, hopeful but prepared for the worst case scenarios, physical and maritally. I can't stop believing that everyone deserves a chance at redemption

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire I absolutely refuse to be abused ever again. But i can't trust that he'll be on ther same page until treatment is complete, and even then it's like addiction or diabetes, a life long struggle to stay healthy. But w proper professional support & massive willpower it can be done

[Esme @basicallyesme]

@skyberfire But until there's proof and true change ill protect myself as the law provides, and that one fact, that i have the law on my side now and forever, gives me the confidence i needed to stick to my guns and demand a complete 180 from him. It is still very early in this process.