I don't want to be recovered I don't understand why I don't feel guilty for eating >1000 calories a day... Maybe it's for the best my ed makes me a horrible person
Back in the mindset of doing everything right and still plateauing. I'm varying calories per day and exercising and everything I'm supposed to do. I don't know when it will truly sink in that to loose actual weight I need to stop eating completely.
@angel_mooned I mean it's a mental illness just like depression or anxiety. Mental illnesses are never there or not there it's often a scale and you can move up and down it. So I would say it is possible and if you feel like that I definitely recommend leaning into it and trying to recover
I find it so funny when I disappear from here for weeks. I wonder if people think I'm eating or recovered or smth. Just taking time to starve in silence and isolation lmao