there is no one irl that likes me. i always have to make the plans first and text first. i shouldnt even say making plans , because im always told no or cancelled on. i dont know why im so unlikeable.
i am a horrible friend, and i am aware of this; i ignore messages, i barely reach out, i do not open up about my feelings or experiences, i do not know how to comfort, react to their pain or empathise with them; i am avoidant and push them away.. just to whine about it later