would love to just have a chance to ask all my old friends why they stopped wanting to hang out with me and just get an honest answer. its like i either have to settle for scraps or be lonely for the rest of my life and i hate ranting about this here but i have nobody to talk to!
i cant believe im turning 29 in a week and i also cant believe that this year literally none of my friends are celebrating with me and im not even sure if i have friends at this point like i moan i have no friends but now i think i really do have no friends
"go out and make some friends" how about life just stops taking away the friends ive already put energy into making. i do not find socialising easy, i cant keep doing this!!!!!!!
being deadly serious now, if youre born a bad singer can you like, just learn to become a good one? singing is my whole entire life and making music in one way or another is my dream i cant stand another day of not being able to hold a damn note 😭
hate that fake tan looks stupid on me, hate that i dont tan naturally, hate that theres white girls who are darker than me, sick of being the most sickly pale mixed race person on the planet, i look ILL 😭
i think ive decided i am actually gonna officially come back here and just use it as an excuse to be weird cus i dont get enough chances to be weird these days