✰ thikkle bean ✰

part time angel 👼🏼 sdsu ph '22 / csusm absn '24 | she/her

[hera @shiningdaisies]

the entire point of life is to be silly and a little weird btw

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

every year i work so hard for christmas to not suck and every year it stabs me right in the gut

[berri @blaxcheri]

ITS GONE ITS GONE NOOOOOOO
TIKTOK NOOOOOOOO

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

i miss having weird friends. i need some strange and unusual characters back in my life

[💀ꋊꏂ꒦ꏂꋪ ꑄꋬꐟ ꒻ꏂꑄꑄ💀 @bassbarbie182]

I'm the biggest hater
hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress
#HOTD #HouseoftheDragon

[rhaenyra targaryen's lawyer @Targ_Nation]

the most hypocritical, annoying, loser motherfucker in all seven kingdoms i hope you burn #HouseoftheDragon

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

the struggle of looking and feeling so significantly better when im tan but also having the skin cancer scaries and being too lazy to self tan... melanoma it is 💔

[Butt Stuff @DMbuttstuff]

unfortunately i’m not addicted to the grind i am addicted to the unwind i love chilling and relaxation and overall taking it easy

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

nursing school has consumed so much of my life that when i sleep i dream about lab values and diabetes 🙃

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

learned what the inside of a butthole felt like today #nursing

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

nursing school is spending your summer weekdays in clinical, ur summer fridays in lecture from 8am-8pm, and then ur summer weekends writing one of ur 5 ten page papers due in the next 10 weeks

[Hank Green @hankgreen]

The first conversation I had with my oncologist, we were just talking about his experiences as a doctor (which...awesome, it was very good to get know him a bit) and I ended up asking if people ever decide to not follow his advice.

He said yes, and he looked very sad and then he told me that every single one of conversations are going to be with him forever.

What a very hard thing that must be...to have someone turn down your advice...to not get chemo, or exit the treatment early, only to come back and find that now the prognosis is much worse and the treatment plan much less clear.

It seemed to me that, at least in part, he felt his inability to keep them on the treatment path was a personal failure. I wish I could take that guilt away from him, because it's not his fault. We're all susceptible to simple stories that give us back a sense of control, even if it's an illusion. And sometimes people cannot be convinced...and sometimes that's deadly.

I'm very grateful that my worldview meshes well with the most effective paradigms. I didn't get that because I'm smart, I got it by the luck of my upbringing. And if ever a doctor tells you that you need chemo...there will almost certainly be people in your life who tell you that you should try alternatives instead.

You. Should. Not.

You can and should do acupuncture and restorative yoga and aromatherapy and eat less sugar and whatever other things help you. But do those things AND get the treatment recommended by your oncologist. Cancer patients have control, it's just a different kind of control than we're used to, and it can be disruptive to an identity to submit to that lack of control. But that's just...having a body, and I'm very happy that I get to have a body.

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

me

[Jane’s Fonda @Dominicannabis_]

No one:

The headlights on a car owned by a 30 something woman who don’t play about her nursing job:

[angelica💫 @anggonzalesss]

I read “ you like taking care of people because it heals the part of you that needed someone to take care of you “ and just ugh man that hurt a little

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

@Vij__X the simple answer is i am not

[✰ thikkle bean ✰ @bby_nikks]

if u hate urself just start working 40 hours a week and go to nursing school at the same time i promise u that u will never enjoy another day in ur life

[Noam Blum @neontaster]

I would pay good money for a recipe website that just told you the fucking recipe and nothing else.

[Christian @Tarihc78]

McDonald’s Snack Wraps