lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥ 

my online diary ___〆(・∀・) lil 🖤29yrs 🖤she/her 🖤hw - 119kg 🖤cw - ????? 🖤gw - 73kg 🖤ugw - 65kg 🖤 pro recovery🖤 minors and fatphobes dni !!! 📍UK/HK

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

lil 😈

- 172cm
- ex bulimic
- binge and restrict
- gw: 65kgs//ugw 50kgs
- lots of exercise 💪🏻
- gay af
- junk food enthusiast

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

so tired of myself

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

down 3kg in 3 days

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

Just had to weigh myself for my insurance thing at work and burst into tears 👍🏻

I’m so back on my bullshit

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

today me and bf got wine drunk and napped really hard together and that’s so magical

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

throwing myself into movies and journalling and crafting and painting so i stop fucking eating and eating and eating and eating and eating

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

thought i was recovering but i was just eating dinner and getting really fat

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

me af

[Pokemon Gems @PokemonGems]

what a chonker

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

Abusing gabapentin makes me miss my Big Ex even though i’ve been happily married for 5 years and she’s a dick

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

going to Japan again in September and i refuse to be fat this time

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

@e_cdysis so proud and excited for u!! ♥️

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

2 meals in and i’m currently at 880cal before the gym
then got fam dinner but i will mainly eat veggies and a little protein so I should manage way under 1.5k cal today

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

@zzihoonpyo you really are the cutest

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

girl fuck you

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

I just got my library card woohoo i’m about to get SO smart fr

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

big things that have happened that i wasn’t prepared for at all which led to me isolating recently:

-unemployed
-flew home
-grandad literally died in my arms
-lost control of my ED
-gained SO much weight

sorry for being quiet but i am so so lost rn but yeah hi

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

just pierced my ear and tattooed my hands on the floor of the spare room at my parents house at almost 30 years old

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

who was gonna tell me that edible calories count? 😔

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

high as hell lay bare chest on laminate floor rn

[lil ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ♥  @bbyn96]

just living my life