It’s an interesting feeling to feel alone even when you’re surrounded by people. It’s not necessarily the presence of people, it’s a feeling of noone understanding you, your feelings and your thoughts. They try their best but it’s just not quite what you need.
I’ve realized that I’m a convenient friend. Meaning I’m a friend when it’s convenient for others. Im there when they need someone. I’ve come to peace that I can’t expect that back from those same people or even be called a friend by them. I am who I am and I don’t regret that.