God is not a wish-granting genie who will give you an unearned paradise that you wouldn’t know how to maintain if you had it. If you were granted the kind of peace you imagine, you would quickly learn that these inadequacies you attribute to God are really your own.
When Osamu Dazai Said “I lived so carefully, thinking someone was watching. But the stage was empty, the audience never came.” And he exposed the truth.
@regoldflakecake I'd wager it's still very achievable for you! Don't give up.
Unfortunately, the heavy pornography usage is a real consequence of strained gender relations. Unsure how that could be resolved short-term.