Sonja

[Sonja @beachysonja]

It is 45 degrees and I am not having it

[Sonja @beachysonja]

The banner in the bus has “March 10, 1990 3:36PM” scrolling along… at 8:23PM a good 30+ yrs later…

[Sonja @beachysonja]

You wanted me because I was strong & independent but I want to be able to be vulnerable with you

[Sonja @beachysonja]

Need to hear your voice. You wouldn’t pick up if I called. But you also are expecting me to be there. The dichotomy of how you treat me is leaching me

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I want to call you…but not sure my heart can take the ring, ring, ring..VM and know there won’t be call back. Just SAY you don’t want us anymore. Draw the line

[Sonja @beachysonja]

And also want to schedule the augmentation ASAP. Although that is largely due to the knowing that I’m okay with the no-birthing-kids thing

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I know you’ve never heard me say this… but being here makes me feel fat?

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I want nothing more than to make a home for us. That space we both chose to be where we come back to, our touchstone for each other and for us.

The question is: do you want that?

[Sonja @beachysonja]

How does one find a good contract laywer? - file under things I want to ask you

[Sonja @beachysonja]

The thing is…you still feel like home

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I wish you were visiting my sister’s family with me.

[Sonja @beachysonja]

Interview ready and yet…it feels empty without you

[Sonja @beachysonja]

Sneezing fit. And I can see the way your eyes would crinkle when you chuckle with me.

[Sonja @beachysonja]

The best part of a Creme brûlée is undoubtedly the brûlée. I know you’d agree with me. Especially when I whisper it in your ear

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I’m ordering an affogato. I want to introduce you

[Sonja @beachysonja]

Why is 3/4 of a taco filling? My taco needs you…

[Sonja @beachysonja]

It’s like you know, when the last lock on my heart, the one tethering us loosens… you text, or call, or…something. Every. Time.

[Sonja @beachysonja]

Spoiler alert. They were not good. But also why are the chips here - in the loose geographical sense - always better?

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I ordered nachos. You wouldn’t want any. But damn, I need some comfort food

[Sonja @beachysonja]

I snagged literally the last glass of wine at this hotel…and I’m sipping it alone so wishing you were here with me