bea 🐹 forced ip

— ! ꒰ bea - utiful ! ꒱ 🧁🌸 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 bmi: 14.4 ☆ ifb !! | 19 yo | 🍈👙ur fave stonerexic ;) life's too pink to be blue!! 🩵🍀 ٩( 'ω' )و
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[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

hihi !! i'm always looking for mooties ! <3 #promotwt #moothunt

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#shedtwt only plss !! ⭐️
₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎ 19 y/o uni student!
☁️ CW : 106 lbs , 5'11"
LBMI : 13.6 💧

♡/↻ 2 moot me .ᐟ

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

omfg i want to die get me OUT OF HERE HOLY FUCKING SHIT KILL ME

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

about to go into ip, update u all when able ily

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

my phone gallery is a cesspool of disordered pics omfg all it is is meal pics and body checks

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

about to go into ip, update u all when able ily

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

4 hours before i fly to forced impatient a day after my entire life changed my main support system aka my close friend group had a severe falling out and are refusing to tell me all the details to "not stress me out more" oh my fucking god i'm going to fucking off myself

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

sometimes i wish they screamed at me when they found out like id expected, because the silence is worse

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

seeing my parents for the first time since i lost all my weight from recovery makes me want to die i can see their eyes track my body and catalogue every new scar and bone and angle. i want to see love in their eyes not grief

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

froyo place has a cuck chair
who wanna observe dis purge 😍

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

worlds slowest eater don't mind how it's been two hours. this one is a heart i wanted to share 😊

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

new lotion + matching omad before inpatient, kill me literally now .

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[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

@sybugmonkeyz perpetuating his worthless existence among the berries #awesome

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

new lotion + matching omad before inpatient, kill me literally now .

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[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

@Svynzu this is so sweet stp it 🙁🙁🩷🩷 it means a lot to me thank u sm genuinely.. it's gonna be hard but ik it's what's best in the long run 🙂‍↕️🍦take care of urself aswell okie 😁

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

packing my stuff from my dorm🙁 i am officially withdrawn from my college and set to be admitted monday at 5 🙁🙁🙁 hoping to have my phone still sigh.

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

@khemikcal @dollybbyface in general that's true but it's really nuanced especially in the case of ed related health.. even as my heart was actively stopping and my kidney was shutting down from starving i still had my period

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

trying not to be triggered by my friend calling her dog big and fat bc he got weighed at the vet and is 104 lbs

this morning i weighed in 104 🥹

so is this a loss bc she called him fat or a win bc im the same weight as a dog lmfao

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

i told my mom abt my eating disorder today over the phone, since im being admitted monday and it's the first time i've ever heard her cry . oh my god i am an awful daughter

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

this is not happening yhiISNT HAPPENING oh my god i can't believe i just got to lw and they are forcing me back ohmy GOD IDONT WAN TTO BE FAT KILL ME OHMYHODDDD

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

oh my bod they are literally forcing me to go. i have until monday to pack and withdraw from school wtf. wtf. wtf i can't do this i don't want to recover i don t want to gain weight. NOT fucking happening

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

i feel like im forcing all my friends and family to watch me die and that's bc i am but it hasn't clicked yet lmao

i turned down the last facility in the entire us that would take me this morning

im going to die this way

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

wtf is wrong with me

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

i feel like im forcing all my friends and family to watch me die and that's bc i am but it hasn't clicked yet lmao

i turned down the last facility in the entire us that would take me this morning

im going to die this way

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

@dontcrysaanjh + ive had it consistently ever since then even while maintaining low bmi 14's !

[bea 🐹 forced ip @beascalories]

@dontcrysaanjh pls dw!! when i was literally hospitalized for heart failure for being uw (bmi 13.8) i got my period back the same night for the first time in months w/ no explanation (before they even treated me lmao)
there really is no relevance to how thin/unhealthy u are to ur period!