I didn’t call you by any other name
I let you know that I knew the true nature of your heart
That it was evil, and that it convinced me that darkness was real
that the devil is a real devil
and that monsters don’t always know that they’re monsters
@loatheandspite Yes i like to shave & yes i acknowledge that i likely enjoy it because of the patriarchy, for example if im not leaving the house for an extended period of time i probably wont shave. But i also like the feeling of smooth skin, it’s thatsimple…
@loatheandspite Exactly 😭 pushing this whole „women only do x & y because of the patriarchy” is actually just as harmful lol… so a woman can’t do something just because she feels like doing it? Yes of course, these things Do majorly stem from a patriarchal society, but its not the case always
Well. ive been this way since i was very young so…. In a way yes, there was never a „me” who knew anything else
And when i wasnt engaging in these behaviours, i didnt feel like myself whatsoever. relapsing felt like coming back after bejng away so long
Im Genuinely convinced my ed isnt even a disorder at yhis point it is just part of who i am
There’s no „me” without it , not necessarily that my ed defines me & it’s all i am, but i just wouldnt be Myself if i were any different
In a sick way, videos like this make me never wsnt to recover lol…. i WANT to talk about this stuff i WANT to experience these problems , my mind twisted my perception and convinced me this is „girlhood”
@lilablod This has been sitting in my thoughts for some time too . But I think that after a while , you just start viewing food as a “product” , at least that’s what I’ve heard from people who work in other branches of the gastronomy industry…