Positively in love w/ Cavalier King Charles Spaniels, bicycles, fotography, hiking, kayaking, coffee, wine, savory foods, Hurricanes hockey, & sunshine.
It is this moment that all of us cyclists fear every single day. It shouldn’t be inevitable. It shouldn’t be a thing. It takes lives and makes us live in fear. That doing everything perfectly right still isn’t enough. I was hit by a truck 12 days ago. My life will never be the same. I don’t want to say that I am lucky, but God had a special hand on me that day. I am full of gratitude for my strong support system of my Caregiver 🐻 @blaize_bikes, family, friends, YOU, medical staff, emergency responders, and my always-loving sponsors. There has been so much openness to help, to love us, and to accept that the pain and the recovery to come does not diminish our dreams or our love for the bike.
I know there will be a lot of questions and concerns. Yes, I did hit my head, and you all know I have done that a few times. I have broken bones and suffered injuries. All the colors of the not-so-beautiful rainbow 🌈 show up on my skin as the bruises migrate. I lose count of how many times I cry in a day. Emotions are raw. There is trauma: physical, mental. There might not be podium racing in the foreseeable future for me, but we must be optimistic for the future. It’s the only way.
For now, know that there is mindfulness in healing. This will be daunting, hard, and scary, like it has been for too many of us. The one thing in life that has brought me so much confidence, community, and expression, feels like it was ripped away from me in an instant. What has given me so much, was almost taken away from me, and more than that, almost took me away. But I trust us and the process. I trust that we should all do what we love with who we love. And that if you take care, care should be taken around you. This should not be our normal. We shouldn’t ride in fear. We must be optimistic. We must believe in our dreams. We must live our dreams. Love you all. I’ll see you on a ride in the future. ❤️ 👸🏼
Be bold. Embrace rest. You are doing your best.
📸 @jayprasuhn