rory✰edtwt

edtwt/vent account
hw: 74 gw: 50 ugw: 47 cw: 55.8
alter in a system

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

all this uncertainty and routine change is making me want to disappear. ngl I kind of doubted my autism diagnosis until now.

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

resigned from my job, went to another state to visit (overbearing) family for 2 weeks, got home and immediately started packing to move house (needs to be finished in 2 days) and signed a contract for a new job.

[kaori ૮っ-ᯅ-ς ა (-18/40lbs) @alch1my]

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[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I was originally going to move out and get my own apartment, but my mental health has been so bad... I think I'll quit my job and get my mental health back on track. maybe study for a while.

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

@pistachiohime yeah I do. though for me it's probably just depression haha.

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I have a good group of supportive friends, I have multiple people who are interested in me romantically, I hate my job but I'm making good money... but I still want to disappear. I want to hurt. I don't know what's wrong with me.

[TSUMOI @pafujojo]

denim

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

weighed 55.8kg two weeks ago, had a bunch of events last week and ate out with friends, weigh 57kg this week >:(

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I have a crush on the most hateful girl rn... her confidence and aura is alluring, but also wow you are such a hater and it makes me nervous about what negative biases I may pick up in your presence, or what you might be saying about me behind my back

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I guess I'm only now noticing these things because I've finally been given the space to grow and figure out my boundaries instead of trying to force myself into a box and be somebody else. idk. peace and love to my fellow systems, ts hard.

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

being a system is disorienting, I'm not sure who I am or what I want. sorry for changing my dn and layout one billion times I'm trying to figure this all out.

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

you can tell who in the system is fronting based on our speaking style. writing style is harder since we all write in lowercase lol, but I follow grammar rules better. another easy tell for me is ED thoughts, too.

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I switched. these answers are now Wrong

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

honestly rate yourself (*´∇｀)ﾉ

looks: 5/10
creativity: 6/10
humor: 5/10
mental health: 6/10
empathy: 6/10
patience: 8/10
social skills: 9/10 at work, 4/10 around people my age
memory: 3/10

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I had about 2000 cals of alcohol and drinks, and have not weighed myself since :)

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

got out of a 3 day plateau and lost 0.6kg 🎉 time to ruin my progress at a work event with a bar tab and free food (^^;;)

[may @maybellinaa]

men get ugly n fat and call it a “dad bod” where is my excuse????

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

I keep thinking I've struck gold with a new artists, and find out they're already playing them in sets (-ω-｡)

[rory✰edtwt @bedrottingg]

having my whole friend group be DJs makes me feel like this sometimes