i hate having anorexia but yet i donβt want to recover.
i hate feeling bloated
i hate losing friends over my ED
i hate how it defines my day
i hate how hungry i get
i hate how the binging is uncontrollable
i hate how i make myself throw up
i hate all of it but i canβt stop
i know weβre all disordered but looking down and judging other peopleβs methods of their ed is weird. like obviously i KNOW laxatives arenβt gonna make me lose weight but thatβs not the point. i just want to be empty. anyone with an ed should understand that.